The Big One

Yes... dat's wut I'm refered to at d gym. "Eh, dat girl can move ya? Even tho she's quite big sized"... "Who's dat big gal dancing next to u? Not bad lah she. Big but she can dance." ... "There, dat plump girl, wut's her name?" ... "The biggest in d group." ... dat's wut they say when refering to me. Yea, I know I'm big compared to d otha gals in d group n I'm quite OK with it. But I do get a lil disheartened at times... it's not fair. These people r only seeing me now, they didn't c me when I 1st started gym... I was huge! Heheh... Not like my guy, my gym buddy, friends n colleagues who've seen me b4 n seen d improvements I've made... they compliment me, they say I look good, look better... these people make me feel good n encourage me to do betta... thanx guys!

The thing is, I'm happy with myself n d way I look (well, most of d time anyway). I just can't stand these gals, ladies n women who keep on saying... "I have a fat ass"... "I want abs like J-Lo"... "I need to lose more fat round my hips" ... "I have small tits... I want to have tits like Janet" ... "Look at the fat on my tummy".... OH C'MON!!!! N I'm telling u these gals are like 20kgs lighter than me! N they're complaining??? "I kept complaining dat I dun have shoes... until I saw a person with no feet" ... nicely said!

I am happy with the way I am... my man loves my body. My friends don't complain bout my weight (unlike a certain person in my dance group). I can fit into sum of my baby-Ts again... which have been hidden at d back of d closet for over 3 yrs!!! I can wear jeans n nice pants again. And I don't have to resort to tracks n baggy Tees when working out at d gym no more, although I like wearing them Tees some time.

But... yesterday dat gal from my group approached me with a proposition. She's been approached by a woman who wants some of d group members to enter a fitness dance competition. Problem is that woman doesn't want me to join, I'm not exactly an epitome of fitness. But that gal from my group insisted on me joining n promised that woman that I'd lose d weight. Great... I have to be fit n trim in 5 months... I'm so not liking this. But then again, it'll b great exposure for me... good experience too. OK... I'm in! So now I'll have to draft out an intensive workout n diet plan to lose the inches, with the help of my man. Baby!!! Help me!!! Fuck! I so hate dieting!