Wut's a Gal 2 Do...?
He went back to his hometown 2 weeks ago. And he went back again last weekend (all thanx to myself for blurting out it's Easter.) And then I sulked... coz despite him being carless (his car's in d workshop), he wud go as far as to ride d damn public bus back! Such dedication to his family... Guess he had forgotten dat he'd promised to take me to dat nice posh club... sighhh.....
Becoz I sulked, he got pissed off... n I haven't heard from him since friday morning. Oh hell... be pissed then... c if i care! My world does not revolve round him no more! It used to be... but now I know betta....
He goes back to his hometown, which is a good 2 n 1/2 hrs drive away, often. He used to go back every otha weekend. But now after I threw a tantrum a few yrs back, he tries to go back only once in 3 weeks... unless sumthing comes up like Christmas, Easter, Deepavali, anniversary of his grand dad's death, auntie needs to go sumwhere, grandma needs to go hospital, doggie got bitten by snake, yada yada yada....
It's bad nuff we hardly get to c each otha during d weekdays, thanx to both our busy schedules, almost half of d weekends he's not ere coz he goes back to his hometown. And for d weekends dat he is ere, we don't do much... coz he wants to go home n sleep.. all tired from d hectic working week he had. When we do go out, it's only for b'fast/lunch/dinner....
I dunno... maybe I'm just one very angry kid. Maybe I'm still angry dat he used to say that he'll do anything for me, back when we started dating 4 months into our relationship... but he doesn't say dat now. Maybe I'm still angry dat he missed my college commencement, my university graduation, my dance choreography class final dance presentation. Maybe I'm still angry at him for delaying his trip to d states to come n c me, coz of his aunt, despite that I still paid for his trip. Maybe I'm still angry at him for breaking up wit me for 4 months n he doesn't consider it a break up but just a break, leaving me wit his last words of "I just wanna b left alone"... n then poof! Gone for 4 months!
Yes yes I know... I'm like an elephant... I never forget. Wut? Let it go? No!!! I can't let it go! U dun just let go sumthing "traumatic" like this. Wut? I'm making sucha big deal bout all these? Well, apparently it's not a big deal to u. But it is to me. No one else is gonna give a damn bout this. Not even u. So please xcuse me if I do make a big deal bout this... coz it's my life... n I do give a damn!
So... does this justify my sulking...?
Becoz I sulked, he got pissed off... n I haven't heard from him since friday morning. Oh hell... be pissed then... c if i care! My world does not revolve round him no more! It used to be... but now I know betta....
He goes back to his hometown, which is a good 2 n 1/2 hrs drive away, often. He used to go back every otha weekend. But now after I threw a tantrum a few yrs back, he tries to go back only once in 3 weeks... unless sumthing comes up like Christmas, Easter, Deepavali, anniversary of his grand dad's death, auntie needs to go sumwhere, grandma needs to go hospital, doggie got bitten by snake, yada yada yada....
It's bad nuff we hardly get to c each otha during d weekdays, thanx to both our busy schedules, almost half of d weekends he's not ere coz he goes back to his hometown. And for d weekends dat he is ere, we don't do much... coz he wants to go home n sleep.. all tired from d hectic working week he had. When we do go out, it's only for b'fast/lunch/dinner....
I dunno... maybe I'm just one very angry kid. Maybe I'm still angry dat he used to say that he'll do anything for me, back when we started dating 4 months into our relationship... but he doesn't say dat now. Maybe I'm still angry dat he missed my college commencement, my university graduation, my dance choreography class final dance presentation. Maybe I'm still angry at him for delaying his trip to d states to come n c me, coz of his aunt, despite that I still paid for his trip. Maybe I'm still angry at him for breaking up wit me for 4 months n he doesn't consider it a break up but just a break, leaving me wit his last words of "I just wanna b left alone"... n then poof! Gone for 4 months!
Yes yes I know... I'm like an elephant... I never forget. Wut? Let it go? No!!! I can't let it go! U dun just let go sumthing "traumatic" like this. Wut? I'm making sucha big deal bout all these? Well, apparently it's not a big deal to u. But it is to me. No one else is gonna give a damn bout this. Not even u. So please xcuse me if I do make a big deal bout this... coz it's my life... n I do give a damn!
So... does this justify my sulking...?
posted by Rebel Devilette at 11:31 AM
1 Comments:
If he causes you that much grief, why don't you just let him go and give someone else a chance to get to know you?
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