This Fixation...

*Heya Luv, my darl, my online floozie.. this one's for u...

I think I'm drownin in u, feel so asphyxiated. I really wanna break this spell that u've created over me. Honey u're sumthin real beautiful, what a contradiction of how u are. U make me wanna play d game, oh how I'm craving and wanting d friction...

Baby, u'll be the death of me.... oh how u really will be the death of me...

Bury it? No love, I won't let u bury it. Nor would I let u smother it. And I won't let u murder it...

Honey, listen when I say that our time is runnin out. Our time togetha is really runnin out. This thing we have u can't push it underground love. It's gonna come screamin out, and u can't stop it...

Honey I wanted the freedom, but u kept me bound and restricted. I tried ever so hard to give u up, but I can't as I'm utterly addicted to u. Now that u know I'm trapped in u, I can tell u have this sense of elation. And I know that u'd never even dream of breaking this fixation u've casted over me...

Baby, u'll squeeze d life outta me...

Bury this thing? No, love, I won't let u bury it. No, baby, I won't let u smother it. No, honey, I won't let u murder it...

Love, can't u see that our time is runnin out. Listen to me when I say that our time is runnin out. U can't push this thing underground and u'll never stop it from screamin out...

OH HOW DID IT EVER COME TO THIS???

Sweetie, u'll suck d life outta me...

Bury it? Baby, no I won't let u bury this thing that we have. And I won't let u smother it if u want to. And I'm sure as hell not gonna let u murder it...

Love, I'm tellin u our time is running out. Make it good, and make it last coz our time is runnin out. Baby u can't push this underground n silence it. And u'll never be able to stop it from screamin out...

HOW DID IT COME TO THIS??? Oh how did it...???

The Devilette Has Returneth...

It's been a while...

But THE DEVILETTE has returneth!!!

It was 6:00am...

It was 6:00am... and I got up... Gotta hit the gym... damn it's god damn early... I washed up... put on my uniform... grabbed my bag... out the door by 6:15am...

I was at d front desk by 625am... *hope they let me in, I have no employee card*... After some small talk, SUCCESS! I was in....

In the free weights area there I was... nobody here but me and my gym buddy... *it's too early!*... Oh... and I see Mr. Mortal Kombat in the class studio practising his moves...

It's our 3rd day working out together and today we decide to do legs... 1st superset: Leg Extension with Leg Curls... 1 warm up set and 3 sets later we're ready to move on to the next set of exercise....

Squats with Straight Legged Deadlifts... 1st set... then 2nd... and I was about to die! Gym buddy managed 3 sets... "Dude... we still have 2 more supersets to go..."
"You go ahead, I'm done!"
"Well in that case, screw it!"

MWUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's damn early!!!!!!

9 Months...

Gah!!!! 9 months!!! 9 freaking months!!!! Has it been that long?!?!?!?!

That's how long i've been away from my blog.... but that's the past... I'm here now... unless I start to slack off again from blogging in the future... hahahahaaa...

So... I've been at this job for 9 months now.... it's not as rosy and dandy as I thought it'd be. Life has always ways to screw you over.... but then again, it has ways of working out too....hopefully...

I don't enjoy my work like I use to before... politics.... everywhere u go there's always politics... fuck this shit!!!! Anyway, because I don't enjoy my work, it has affected that 1 thing that I used to love to do... pumping iron. Yes, sad to say I don't have that zest for working out like I use to... and I miss it...

It's time I change all these.... I need a new attitude... I need a new plan.... but now... it's time for my nap... hahahahhaa...... zzzzzzzz.....

Still Here...

Yo peeps!

I'm still around.... still getting accustomed to the new job and all.... btw, I LOVE MY NEW JOB!!!! Told ya I was gonna make fitness my life..... woo hoo!!!!

I miss training with my gym buddy... ain't no fun training alone.

Yesterday I got into an argument with a colleague... he was pissed at me & another colleague for ratting him out to management. Thing is, this lazy bastard don't pull his own load round d gym & always go missing during his shift. I told on him coz his laziness affects me... I have to do double the work... n I'm tired of covering his missing ass. Barely a month at d new job and already there're politics.... uggghh.... should've known this was expected with all them lazy ass Malay mentality.... fucktard!

It's now about 2:40am on a saturday nite. Waiting for Lost at 3... I'm using my bro's laptop... he's back from UK on a break.... damn.... with him back n d nature of my new job, I'll b lucky if I get to go online once a week.... both my bros and 2 cousins just went on a trip to singapore.... wish I could go... they didn't ask... wasn't invited.... ah well... I got work anyway.... OH! I gotta be at work in... 7hrs!!! Yea... me work on Sunday.... ain't bad at all coz I love it!

Gym members on my morning shift are so cranky... maybe it's the early hours.... we're gonna get a new girl on our team soon... she'll be joining me on training.... 16 trainers... 3 of them girls.... hhmmm..... oooo.... i just checked out my lower leg muscles... mwuahahahhaa.... damn that thai massage hurt like a mufucka! And my guy laughed when I told him it hurt.... that's it... I'm dragging his ass for the next session... couple massage... see if he'll be laughing then... hehehehe.....

Marang perapu kepunden.... marang skeperrrrrr........ hehehehehe..... I always laugh whenever I hear that! HAHAHHAHA.....

Oh kay.... nite nite....

WOO HOO!!!!!!!!

Yeeeaaaahhhhh!!!! I'll never have to worry about coding ever again!!! Why??? That's cause I'm finally leaving this shithole!!!!! YAAAAHOOOOO!!!!!

Tendered my resignation last Friday. Giving them 1-month notice. I could use the money from another month's salary plus all those annual leave I accumulated! I'm gonna make 'em pay! Squeeze them for as much as I can!

What? You want me to fix this bug? Fuck you! Yea... you heard me... fuck you! I have no idea how to code this... it's been almost a year since I've worked with this language and now you want me to take over the project and fix the bugs?!?!?! What the fuck is wrong with you??? I'm leaving in less than 4 weeks! Find some other fucker to fix it... I'm done with coding!!!!

I had a dream... a dream about single-handedly shutting this shit hole down.... if you continue to fucking piss me off with the absurdity of taking over a project that I have not even had a look at, let alone know the language, that dream might become a reality... so don't push me!!!! AARRGGGHHHH!!!!

I fucking hate this place and almost everyone in it.... I'm so glad I'm getting outta here.... The day will come when I get to watch this company go down the crapper! GOOD RIDDANCE!

Another One Bites The Dust...

I got this in the mail yesterday... a big pink envelope with a picture of 2 wedding rings bound together. Oh fuck! A wedding invitation! And who's it from? My ex-room mate back in the states. Holy fuck! Yes... that slut of a 2 cent trailer trash fat lard of a country bumpkin uncouth whore that I blogged about a few weeks back.

Fuck-fuckety-fuck! What the hell is she sending me a wedding invite for? I've not been keeping in touch with her successfully for the past 4 years, intentionally of course... mwuahahhaaaa! Awww... now look at her... getting married and all... bwuahahahaaa.... another one bites the dust! MWUAHAHAHHAHAAAA!!!!

Personally, I don't believe in marriage. To me it's just a piece of paper. You wanna have kids, then fine... go get married. I hate kids, and so does my boyfriend. Kids are just a waste of time, and more importantly, money! They're useless investments! A life-long obligation! Bah! Every time I see or hear a kid screaming and wailing, I just feel like bashing the kid's head on the concrete floor till it smashes! Fucking kids! Or twist their limbs till they crack and brake! Mwuahahahahaaaa!!!! Yes... I am that evil....

I wanna live my life for my own and I only wanna love 1 person, and that is my honey. Kids and family will just rob me of my freedom. Yes, I'm selfish that way... bite me! I don't like the idea of taking care of other people except for myself and my boo. And I don't like the idea of taking care of my parents when they're old and incapable of taking care of themselves. So far so good but when that time comes I'll just have to stick them in a home and disappear. Call me ungrateful, yea... I'm so ok with that.

Why get married? I still have so much to live for! I enjoy my freedom as an unmarried. Life is a big party for me, and I intend to party till I'm either dead or just too immobilized to shake it.

2 of my female cousins my age got married a couple of years ago. They both just gave birth. HAHAHAHAHAA!!!! Another female cousin in her mid-30s got married early last year, her 2nd marriage, and now has a 6 month old baby. Before her wedding, her brother in his late 30s got married to a girl my age! MWUAHAHAHA....a real cradle snatcher! And every time I look at them or hear of them, I just shake my head to the tune of Another One Bites The Dust... ah!

Rebel Devilette signing off for now saying.... PARTY HARD! PARTY NOW! PARTY ON! WOO HOO!!!!

Falling...

Just taking a breather from work... looking out the window I see blue skies with whispy cotton candy-like clouds. And everytime I do this, I imagine myself falling from the clouds...

How far away am I?
How tiny would I appear looking at myself falling from where I'm looking at now?
I wonder how far is the drop...
I wonder how would it feel like falling like that... how fast would I go?...
Could I feel the clouds between my fingers as I'm falling...?

Then again falling might be a little bit scary...

OK... how bout gliding? Or floating? Yeah... floating... that sounds better...

Floating down from the sky through the cotton candy clouds...

Wonder if the feeling's the same if I jump out this window from the 12th floor....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........................